overwhelmed with emotions this morning. heard from a fren tat my churchmate's grand father passed away.

dun noe him personally but still feel sad cos have been praying for the elder. n also it just brought back last year's memories of my godpa's funeral.

my godpa died last year. arnd august. it was a sudden death as he had some probs with the heart. complained of chest pains, brother brought him to doctor. later he fainted at hospital n by the time he went on ambulance..it was too late.

only my godsis n my godpa's brother saw his last moments. imagined how much pain my godma & his other 2 children felt.

it's sad when someone dies. not only because the person is physically separated from his loved ones forever..but its also a spritual separation. at the wake, the body is still dere but we r saddened becos we no longer can talk to that person...

yet, life does not just end dere. we do have a life after death. Jesus says in Jn 5:24 "..whoever hears my word & believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life".

i alwz think abt when is the day i die...life is so unpredictable..prob one day i sit at the busstop, someone cld come up n stab me in my stomach. n tats the end of me. or maybe if i cross the road, the car go too fast...i might just get banged n good bye to carmen...or i could contract cancer becos one in four contracts cancer..n with my medical condition of liver probs n other stuff..it might jus struck me.

i am not being pessimisticbut realistic. cos life is tat short. we r just a mist. but I am thankful n the hope tat shld i die someday, i will be in heaven with God. Because he has given me eternal life tat i will continue enjoying after I die.

Pretty long entry huh..but one of the rare times tat i wrote such in depth feelings n thoughts. hope it din bore u.

carmen out.