reflecting
on all d stuff tat went on yesterdae..it was kinda great!!

firstly,
in morning i went2 skol 2 return lenses n stuff..then i saw kaiyan, faith &
mm. had a great though short chat with kaiyan. hey gal..its great 2 noe tat
u r not bothered by d guy animore.. jiayou! realli wish we had more time 2 tok
2 each other..haa.. considering how cool it is tat we r now peers when we used
2 be seniors and juniors back in skol..

went
2 eat with faith n minming..basically just tok crap lahz..haa...

went
home wanted 2 do some work before meeting the gals for BS but when i wenton2
my lovely bed, tiredness just gt over it. in the day, i was like forget it..made
my way 2 woodlands.

the
ebs was veri good! they were veri responsive n asked me mani questions. we took
fotos too..though initially they were rather shy..haha..

then
i had a stupid argument with snoops. if u r reading this, i am sorrie i threw
my temper at ya again.. i realli gtta learn2 shut my mouth up! but i had fun
at kfc...haha.. especially with the idiot sign thing..haa.. someday we go n
eat alot alot of KFC chicken k..to our hearts content!! yeahz!!

oh
then i met my senior, huiming! we had great chats abt ministry, r.ships etc..she
gave me a lot of advice n shared with me abt her church ministry work. i am
so proud 2 have her as a da jie jie to alwz be dere 2 give me tons of advice
n encouragement. at church, skol or home, i am alwz de da jie but it just feels
so great when theres someone else 2 be doing tat role for me!! i was so excited
hearing abt the work shes doing in church..how committed she is n teh things
tat she is planning for the Lord!

last
but nt least, went 2 mich hse for cg. topic was so cool i wished i cld share
with ya guys..it was abt wad it means 2 be a good wife! haa... the food was
great as well until i ate this potato tat i thought was sour. i was like oops...
but i asked mich 2 take a bite but she said it wasnt... so i guessed its me
lahz..haa

me,
cin n spence hung arnd after all the adults left & boy, was i excited 2
noe tat spence composed his own Christian song!! n the song was so nice.. then
we joked abt releasing an album and ving was like..he wanted 2 be spence manager..haha..
well, hope my dear brother continues 2 write more songs for God!!

n
dearest mich..i am gonna say tis again! haven seen u so happie in such a long
while.. i realli hope tat u will go back 2 the good old days where u used 2
shine for Christ in joy.. its awful when u serve in unhappiness though service
does encompasses sacrifice 2 a certain extent..

tats
all for yesterdae..wad a super long entry..haha

14 DAYS since i last blogged!!!

haven been touching the com much..my sis has been hogging d com for mani days. shes alwz on msn, irc, icq... n wadever chatting rooms u can find on tis earth. i dun wish2 comment animore. but i find it strange tat a nurse to be is so hooked on2 online, virtual chatting.

went ubin yesterdae! it was fun!! but tiring..n my legs hurt like crazy cos i was cycling n lazy me haven been
exercising.. bernard had 2 carry my bag for me..tx and sorrie brother.. for d extra baggage.. but iskandar even
more steady, he rode ru arnd cos she cun cycle... but now she can!! cos she had her 1day lesson in ubin!!

life in ubin is realli slow.. erhz.. i mean slooooowwwwwwww.. there wasnt much activity on the island.
aunties n uncles just sat arnd, chit chat..eating.. n even the dogs were zzzz half the time we saw em.

we commented tat itd b a gd retirement plc...but i dun tink i wil go dere.. cos i plan2 learn things such as folk dancing,
sing ktv, be involved in community work when i grow old..if i can still walk arnd lahz..i also hope 2 have an old folks ministry in my church maybe...then we can do outreach tog.. cindy, spencer n michelle.. u guys r recruited! ha..i noe i am mad but i think i will realli do it huh...

gtta get back 2 work.. hapie hols to fellow skol mates!

hmmm.. had a realli bad time in mac lab just now. shall nt elaborate on it.
but tanks faith, ru, phil and debby for helping!
realli appreciate lots! sorrie 2 monica 4 keeping u waiting..

well, i kinda been hearing some bad stuff abt things happening 2 different pple.
n i kinda feel sad for them.. in fact, i feel like crying now. i dunno why. its just tat
i wish life could be easier at times, less tears & more joy. but the world's full of sin
so i guess it doesn;t happen in tat way.

everyone has a sad story to tell. at tat pt, it alwz seems hard 2 get out of it. but
trust me, when its all over n the sky's clear.. u would reallli be glad tat u had left
all d sad things behind. i have experienced d days of crying nitez after nitez...so i
know how u guys feel...

2 all the buddies out dere who r facing pain n sorrow, i just wanna let u know tat
i will pray for ya if i noe your story.even if i am nt dere 2 share it with ya..
i am sorrie tat i have been impersonal at times..
i am still learning i guess. but if u want a hearing ear, i can b dere for ya too...

i guess i shld stop distancing away n be near to the hearts of pple who hurt n grow thru
pain. i am gonna listen up. realli.

in mac lab.

1713 hr. darren, xand listening 2 songs.

boon chwee behind me.

nothing else in d room except music streaming in2 my ears.

shucks. no feature writing pls.

laa.... i screwed up 2day. everything just was like so bad. i took cab to skol again!! waster of mum and dad's precious $$!!

so mani tings just happened. an hr ago, i was at bkt batok. but futile trip.

i cried. i wept. i drank bubble tea. i wanted 2 scream at the top of my voice. but i din.

i dug out my bible to read.

God said," My grace is sufficient for you, 4 my power is made perfect in weakness. " 2 corinthians 12

i wept again. then a familiar voice called me. it was esther yeo! long time no see siahz..wow her hair so long liaoz..

after chatting a while to her, i flipped back 2 my daily bread. wait a min, why was i reading jan 20 entry?

i chuckled under my breath. God's will. His words to touch my heart n comfort my soul.

i took d ride back 2 skol again. n here i am in skol again.

someone complained of my blog lacking emotions.

he said "you dun even write about how u feel, u just go on and on abt what you did the whole day.
do u expect yourself to be reading this after many years later, just to remind yourself what you did on this day?"

i am like: who cares?

i think we have enuff of report-writing, biz reports, journalism,
not 2 mention per comm reflective journals!(gulpz..) in cmm.

blog is more for : crap and ramblings of carmen?

ha.. wadever.. okayz lahz, at least there's slight tinge of heck-care attitude here in this entry.

maybe for those who are reading my blog, is dere anything u wanna know?? maybe i would write abt it..

thanks everyone for celebrating moi birthday with me!

thanks spencer, michelle(s), david, cindy, cynthia, damien, glen, shaun, shane, ashley, nana, cherie, irving, yanzhen, geok, jiayan n to my beloved sistAAA juliana for organising the party!

thanks for the gifts folks...

thanks mummy for the food.. thanks daddy for buying the coke n d prawns.. thanks Godma and aunties for the ang baos!

thanks to God for his blessings thruout this 21 years.. He's great!