2nd last entry of 2005

Alright, for the 2nd last entry of the year, I shall make it a happy one!

Well, other than school work (which we shld not go there... not even near), there is much 2 await in the new year!

New plans, new beginning, new start & many more changes to come about!

There's graduation & so many post-graduation plans to come!

Date: 21 - 29 March 06
Venue: Macau
Purpose: Mission Trip!

Yup, 9 days trip! I'm really excited cos I will be travelling with my poly friends from YFC... and there's those I am quite close to, on not 2 bad terms & even those tat I nt familiar with!

Awwww man.. thinking about it makes me go high! We had our 1st meeting last nite & received our Cantonese manuals to memorise..so everyone, start speaking Cantonese to me!

(Will likely keep a separate blog about tis trip. So stay tuned. :P)



Tmr will be kept busy at church for Watchnight service. Heard there's lotsa food in store, oops, FOOD again! Ally, let's lose weight tog in 2006!

And more food at Joc's house after that.... gulps!!!!

Den hmm, what will I be doing on 1st & 2nd day of the new year?

Make a wild guess. ;P

I hope the FI youths get 2 read this..

Am i missing out something?

I know it's silly of me to think in this way but I feel really sian that I can't go down & join the youths for their Sentosa outing 2day.

At first i thought i could & i tried 2 rush my work but after yesterday's whole day shoot I was already so tired..Den i woke up this morning & battled it for such a long time.

I thought maybe i cld do my work from 9 - 12 noon, then still go down & meet 'em. But I still have to leave arnd 5 cos of tonight's mission trip.

I dun wanna complain about the whole poly system lar. It's just me I feel, too conscious & too 认真 sometimes. I thought: Never mind lar, just go out & play today, worry about the hw later.

Can i? I tried to. But I feel bad. I haven't even started on my law assignment & BJ news & pple have already offered me help. (Thanks to the two who have helped, u noe who u r). Then how can i have the 心情 to go out and play?

Then i look at the new few days, tmr morning shepherds mtg, return equipment in afternoon. Sat afternoon gt watchnight, evening gathering with st nicks friends.

I know I have to prioritise. And prioritise means missing out so much good times with them.. I wish I cld do smtg abt it..

I am sorry to the youths that I can't be there. I know I haven't done enough for you guys these two years.

Ling Ling Ling, buay icecreammmmmmmmm

I cun believe this, two days in a row, teenagers have been knocking at my door to sell me icecream!!! Thankfully i'm nt staying at home the next few days.. if not i prob faint when the nx person comes selling me icecream.

They bring ice-cream to the doorstep! Better than ordering groceries online! Next time, i hope they will sell more stuff like erm, bak chor mee, nasi lemak, otah, curry chicken, den u dun need 2 step out of the hse still got food to eat!

Ha.. i am crazy yes! Of course lar, when it's december = holidays & you still have to do so much work, who isn't? Not only me stressed, everyone arnd me also sounds stressed when they call me/IM me... So even if i try not 2 feel stressed, i get affected by my classmates as well.

I really was contemplating to write to the ministry regarding this whole poly system thing. I think it just screws up all polytechnic students & staff's lives, in a way. Esp family time! Gets everyone so confused and people misunderstanding you. When you have tests, they think u on hols. When you have hols, they ask why u not going to skol? When you have study break, they tink the hols have started.. the list goes on...

Ya, u say just explain properly to them. problem is parents are old & they rem better the plots of channel 8 dramas than my upside down timetable.

But nvm, i'm out of this system soon, 2 more months!!! Ha.. so all the best to the rest of the people!!!

p/s: pardon me for the lousi english here, am too sian to write properly!

Post Christmas

This weekend has been a busy one for me. Started off with my cousin's Eileen's wedding on 23rd, followed by Christmas eve shopping & Christmas service & family party...

I had fun at the family party cos i was in the room playing boardgames with my cousins. Felt very popular cos the kids wanted 2 play different games with me!!! Ha.. for once...It was the 1st time i bought gifts for everyone as well. Even though they were small little ones, I felt it was the thought tat counts.

Then i woke up this morning, suddenly remembering tat deadlines r due next week.

Alright, post-Christmas reality check . Bah...

Time to do work, before counting down to 2006!

A new new year resolution: LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!

No kidney, no heart, no liver...

Did you guys go "WAHLAO AYE!" when you read the recent NKF reports with KPMG's audits?

I DID!!!!

"only 10 cents of every charity dollar went to subsidise patients' direct treatment costs"

Like what the ? 10 cents!!!!!!!! Not even 20 cents or 30 cents? But 10 cents?? So if i donate 10 cents during flag day, only 1 cent goes to the patient? Waht! One cent is not even a proper denomination in Singapore now!

I feel sorry for those who donate their hard-earned money to Durai & his team's pockets. C'mon who on earth pays someone after she quits the company? It's super ridiculous.. & conversion of OT to monetary rewards? Possible but such a big amount?? Like hello it's a charity organisation, not an MNC! I doubt even MNC give so much... And a study trip to LA? Pleaseeee sick patients need better healthcare, more subsidies on medicine, welfare benefits for family & school, not better entertainment ideas for fund-raising projects!!!!!!!!!

Sharon Au must be crying in Japan now if she reads these reports. For all her dagger-stunts, squeezing into aircon..and singing & appealing to the public for all these years...

And feel sad for those who have to clean up the mess left behind by these irresponsible people who are only interested in using company's interests to personal gains.

Kudos to Gerald Ee & the current board for being so brave to pick up the pieces & still continue the work to help the patients.

And Singaporeans really quite wad lar sometimes. How can they call the staff at the current NKF & scold them? I doubt they know much abt the situation or were in any position to change matters. If wanna call & rant, shld at least call Durai ma.

Btw, anyone got his number?

Spoiler alert!

Watched King Kong with my mum, sis & Amos. Bumped into Serene & her bf and all of us ended up sitting in the same row. Thanks Jeremy 4 sending us home. World's small man, turns out Serene's bf also knows one my ex-colleagues from TV12.

My mum is such a film critic, she says she prefers the older King Kong version cos the remake's storyline is too complicated. Though she said the action sequences gave her quite a bit of scare. I thought the scariest part were the natives... really...

Ha, but on the whole, the show was okay. A tad disappointed but still worth the $$ if you are there 2 be entertained, which is what a movie is essentially for. Maybe i am too affected by the scriptwriting test but i think the climaxes were overdone. Like climax after climax. After a while, you just sit there & absorb the brainless action sequences.

But of cos, Peter Jackson & his team has to be credited for the special effects & the great use of actors. I love Naomi Watts! She's just a beauty in her own way..Not just another blonde actress. I thought the intensity was quite there. Imagine your heart crying out to a green screen? Or CGI-generated gorilla...Not easy siah.. what's Adrien Broody doing in this film? Feel he's abit wasted for the role? He looks such an unlikely hero..but maybe tats the draw of the film?

Then, there's Thomas Kretschmann, the captain! He's so cool... Even the young boy Jimmy, oh man i just realised it's Jamie Bell, the lead actor of Billy Elliot! Wow he's so dashing now! It was nice that Jackson had B-storylines and gave some backstories to the supporting characters. At least it wasn't just bang bang bang go!

Okay enuff of my super-unprofessional review.. Ta!

Random Rantings

I am so not a mugger. As Leslie the bus driver has said, "Look on the bright side, this is the last term test you will be sitting for."

Yup, last one as long as i dun get psycho-ed into going into university by my parents. The weekly pep talks really drain me. But i will just be thankful if my mum doesn't use emotional blackmail again. The faint heart cun take it too well.

As for my dad. My ceasing of pursuing higher knowledge seems to be the cease of his importance. Since i am not going to university, he seems 2 give me the impression that there's no meaning in his life anymore.

I dun understand why it has to be mentioned in such a way. When he mentions his retirement plans, he's not happy. Shouldn't he be happier that he can finally take a break?

And yes, thanks my beloved sister for removing ur blog link from my bookmarks list.

Man, i dread to think what lies ahead for me. When March comes, when exams end. And the nagging starts again. But everytime i think of my situation, then i think about Louis' case, then i feel i am more blessed. Cos i think if my results were half as good as him, i will be dead meat by now.

Like come on, 3.9!!!! GPA. Is he human or wad?

Okay, this is abit early but anyway my new year resolution is not raise my voice and make myself sound angry when i am not. Everyone pls try & help me fulfill this for 2006!!!

What's your new year resolution???

Why not journalism

Quite a number of Cmmers expressed their surprise when knowing that I wasn't majoring in journalism. I in turn, was also quite surprised by their comments.

Actually, i was quite torn between broadcast & journalism when choosing the options. I love to write & report. And having some experience in Stop Press, Lime magazine, I must say i am quite comfortable with reporting.

But I was afraid that i might lose out to the rest who had journalism experience during SIP. Besides, i always feel inferior in terms of my language proficiency.

I also felt that the experience at Mediacorp will benefit me on a greater level for the broadcast subjects.

But, I am not ruling out a possibility of working in the journalism field when i graduate. Cos' i think it's really fun to interview people and put everything together on print. And i feel there are many things that can be achieved in print that TV can't.

Well, whatever it is, I just hope 2 graduate happily from this skol, learning as much as i can before i chiong out!

XXXX

This sem really calls for multi-tasking, extreme discipline and tenacity to pull thru the sleepless nights.

As i look ahead, there are so many deadlines & projects to do. Each week, broadcast people have at least 2 assignments to complete.

But at least it's doing stuff that we like. AdTV is one of the toughest but probably the most fulfilling when we complete the project.

As for Broadcast Journalism, think sourcing the news is quite tough but the weekly news shows shld be quite fun. In a way, i am glad Darren & i are the first team. Cos kind of like get it over & done with.

Inspite of all these busyness, i think i am still gonna blog regularly. Ha. It's my way of relieving stress & speaking my thoughts aloud.

Ciao!

Beginning of the Season

Well, feelin better today after a good nite of rest. (Physically & emotionally) But need to start chionging for Adv TV proposal now. Arghhhh ....

It was quite an interesting night spent at Fort Canning Park. It was so amusing seeing people using candles to hunt for the trees on the hill. Was sure glad that i convinced Siangjun to stay up on the hill for the exhortation and worship. We sat in the tunnel & it was amazing hearing the story of the three trees, Wenling's touching testimony and singing The First Noel in the 100+ years old tunnel.

Going home was such just like returning back from Christmas shopping. There i was carrying 2 Christmas trees and Louis helping me to carry the left-over bentos. While going down escalator...

Louis: Hey, i help you carry the trees lar. You carry the food
Car: Orh..actually it's not very heavy (but anyway, still exchange.)

A beat of silence after exchanging the stuff.

Louis: Actually, it's about the same weight.
Car: (Laughs) yes.. just tat it's bulky.

So anyway I have gotten 2 small Christmas trees now in my room, still waiting to be decorated and brighten up my boring-structural room.

Off to work~ Hope Mich & team are fine in Myanmar!

almost forgot: HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITTLE FAT PIG!!! Ha.. you r finally 19! I hope you will learn 2 talk less in the new year! ooopz...

我不知道

今天心情很糟。觉得自己越来越不会掌控情绪。 Sorry to all my friends, esp Fant4 for bearing with my nonsense.

在回家途中，觉得很累。有时，不知是为自己而活？还是为上帝？

太多的事物捣乱了我的视线。我想学习如何说“不”，但每一次大家找我帮忙时，我又不忍心拒绝。

我真的得停下脚步，仰望耶稣，看清明年他要我走的方向。

So ya I made my point

All the people going thru breakups are probably gonna slam me but i am gonna say it anyway.

Actually I think that sometimes it's really no big deal when you go thru breakups, cos you still need to 大便，eat, sleep, do tutorials, complete your projects.... Basically, life goes on. It doesn't stop just because he/she stops being the one that was supposed 2 be.

And compared to dying children, orphans, children born without limbs, people sick in hospital, abandoned elderly, kids with Aids...well, all the heartaches & pain is really uncomparable?

Call me bo xin gua(heartless) but ya, this msg is for me just as it could be for you.

Dunno

Feeling quite sian about how things are turning out. Think this sem gonna be real tough... People relations are the hardest to handle but yes, i will work on it even if its tough..

Sigh

King Kong

It's the year 1987. My parents brought me to watch King Kong Lives in a cinema in Balestier. I was only about 4. Either put off by the darkness or freaked out by the huge gorilla, my mum said i insisted on running out of the cinema. So, we never finished watching the show.

It's the year 2005. I am really looking forward to watching King Kong(2005). I've promised to bring my parents there. But i am quite sure this time round, i won't run out of the cinema. =)

Is this all we have?

Mich's dad has been discharged so thank God for that! But this afternoon, received another depressing news.

The bus uncle that fetches my church members every Sun called me that he is not fetching us this week. I thought maybe it's becos he's going overseas or something. Then after a while, he actually told me that his son committed suicide by jumping off a building. (over some marital problems)

It was a further shock knowing that his son is only 23 years old. Just one year older than me. Sigh... Feel really 心酸 when i hear all these news of young people ending their lives abruptly over relationship problems. They have so much more to achieve in their lives but they just decide to end it off...

I know it has nothing to do with me but just feel sad thinking about how their death will affect their loved ones, esp their living parents. I think that hits them the most & also their friends etc...

Really, there's no problem that cannot be solved. But of course when you're in the situation, sometimes things just look so bleak. There are so many families with problems & issues. I can never go without a week not hearing any of these sad stories.

The more i hear, the more I think God wants me to do something about it. It could be a possible sign about where He is leading me next...

Sobz..

My heart is really unsettled now, thinkin about my best friend Michelle & her dad. Michelle's dad been hospitalised suddenly. He kind of lost his memory yesterday morning.

At first thought wun be so serious, but he's in hospital for a few days. Almost cried when i read her blog post just now. I am so worried for her.. I cannot imagine how it will be like if i were in her shoes.

I was hoping to go down today but with all the assignments and a last min meeting, i guess will only be able to go down tmr. Really really feeling very sad now though i heard he's getting better.

Praying for her & her family...