went for the radio audition tday! scary!! cos i was the first one to be auditioned & dere were 3 parts in all...n i felt i din had enuff timee..i shld have asked for more time but nvm lah

was rather jerky when i spoke..n tripped over my words..Nt my best performance certainly..heh (in the words of AMI judges). Mrs. Nah says i was rather fluent when i spoke casually to her but prob nervous when i was reading..yesh i was!!!

aniwae dun tink will get in lah..even if get in(which is so unlikely..haa), i also dun tink i have time 2 go for the training becos june 2nd week also going 4 church camp wich is in batam! n i am looKing forWard 2 it..

carmen out

overwhelmed with emotions this morning. heard from a fren tat my churchmate's grand father passed away.

dun noe him personally but still feel sad cos have been praying for the elder. n also it just brought back last year's memories of my godpa's funeral.

my godpa died last year. arnd august. it was a sudden death as he had some probs with the heart. complained of chest pains, brother brought him to doctor. later he fainted at hospital n by the time he went on ambulance..it was too late.

only my godsis n my godpa's brother saw his last moments. imagined how much pain my godma & his other 2 children felt.

it's sad when someone dies. not only because the person is physically separated from his loved ones forever..but its also a spritual separation. at the wake, the body is still dere but we r saddened becos we no longer can talk to that person...

yet, life does not just end dere. we do have a life after death. Jesus says in Jn 5:24 "..whoever hears my word & believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life".

i alwz think abt when is the day i die...life is so unpredictable..prob one day i sit at the busstop, someone cld come up n stab me in my stomach. n tats the end of me. or maybe if i cross the road, the car go too fast...i might just get banged n good bye to carmen...or i could contract cancer becos one in four contracts cancer..n with my medical condition of liver probs n other stuff..it might jus struck me.

i am not being pessimisticbut realistic. cos life is tat short. we r just a mist. but I am thankful n the hope tat shld i die someday, i will be in heaven with God. Because he has given me eternal life tat i will continue enjoying after I die.

Pretty long entry huh..but one of the rare times tat i wrote such in depth feelings n thoughts. hope it din bore u.

carmen out.

yeah thank God!!! no subs to take!!

was so worried initially cos realli a lot of things cldnt do..or either tat do already not sure correct or not!
mr. toh must b really lenient!!thanks a lot!!

though results nt as good as last sem...but overall still okay lahz... jiAyou everyOne!!

i tink i am going craxy..

i dl the same song..in 2 or 3 versions.. then listen.. back 2 back. ha. n i am suddenli falling in love with oldies or just songs tat the radio dun play animore.or basically the feel good love songs..here r those tat i dl more than one version

1. lately
2. wanna grow old with u
3. when i see you smile
4. rainbow connection..heard it on someones blog..nice
5. one last cry..tanks to irving

ok..is tat a sign of growiNG oLD..maybe..

but i am just kinda sian of catching up with d trenDs..chaRts..
it used be perFecT 10 n 933 day in out..bt now i dun even switch on the radIo...

n yesh..i haven changed the layout..will do soon.in ten years time.

carmen. out